The Healing Continues...

I am behaving. I am not a good patient. Never have been. I am of the bend whereby I will give myself a few days to heal/rest/whatever if I am sick then I want to soldier on. I have a wee bit of PTSD from being sick for so long with Lyme (though I know there are many who are still sick, and were worse for longer...)so any *down time* makes me very edgy. I am REALLY trying to be good, doing only what I have to, though in the back of my mind I am having a bit of anxiety about the lack of *doing*...

This is why, partly, I decided to do the cleansing along with my head recouperation. I want to feel proactive. The fact that my physical body is fine, yet I still can't do anything is a mind f&ck for me so this way at least I feel like I am accomplishing something. I would not willingly take the time to rest, and do a cleanse...too busy. I have a schedule to keep, ya know. This was a win-win...sorta. :)

So far...so good. As good as can be expected, I suppose. I have actually enjoyed juicing, which I never did before, I am LOVING it actually! I will most likely continue on some level indefinitely, as Hubby also enjoys it and even JD has been drinking a *shot* of juice a day. I have been using a lot of beets/apples/carrots/greens, rotating my greens, plus doing my green smoothies. I am thrilled to say that I am officially OFF of coffee! I have wanted to quit coffee forever, but just couldn't give it up. Well, I had thoughts of weaning off this week but by my second day on juice, I could not bring myself to drink it! I was actually queased out by it! :) Joy. That was my one last vice I wanted to be rid of (sans my occasional indulgence in chocolate...which is not a huge issue, imo)

I was in a bit of a panic last night. I was at the end of another painful day and whining a bit to Hubby about the crappiness of my current state when he lovingly pointed out that part of my feeling bad could very well be from detoxing. Typically, the first 3-4 days of a fast/cleanse you DO feel awful- headaches, fatigue, body aches, etc...sound familiar? Yep. Well, interestingly, while I was soaking in my hot salt bath last night I definitely felt a *shift*...I slept well last night, and woke up this morning feeling better...sorta. I didn't have a headache, and it didn't come on until later in the afternoon. So, we have some progress here. I am still going to go slow, rest, etc but I finally feel like I may be on the other side. I have BIG plans to do nothing over the weekend, and actually spend one day entirely in bed while my family is away...complete brain rest. It might suck, lol, but I am going to try. I figure if my brain spends an entire day doing absolutely nothing, think of the healing it can do! :)

I am commited to continuing this juicing/smoothie *feast* for another week, along with all my brain supplements regardless of what the outcome is on Monday when I see the Dr. again. I figure it can ony help, AND it will help keep me from going back into *life* too quickly. I have decided that since I have been really being pulled back to raw, and more like 100% raw, I am going to go back to the 80-10-10 fruititarian *way* of eating. I had been leaning that way anyways, but I am going to be more concious about it. I have pretty big plans for my running, etc over the next 2 years and I need to be at the top of my game health/nutrition-wise. That is what feels right for me now...

OK...back to resting my brain... :)